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April 28 Message in A Bottle
All began from this letter in a Bottle.
She got the bottle on the beach, with her curiosity, she was moved by it so much coz it just waked up something deepen in her bottom of heart. Her name was Theresa, after being betrayed by her husband who was the only one she loved and married to. Without thinking of happenly coming across two other letters from Garrett, who obviously falling in deep love with Catherine. She just wanted to find out how can one love so deeply, she just wanted to find out but never knew she was steping into a doomed bottle of Destiny...
No one can predict what would happen next sec, no one would figure out the scene their eyesight contacted with each other, Garrett would never think he would fall in love with this woman pushed by a bottle, and now standing before him...
A little sad about what happened afterward. On hearing Theresa knowing his letters in the bottle, Garrett shouted to her, felt as he was used by her, she was totally a liar. But even Garrett himself didn't relize, Theresa knew it was not the true reason made him so angry. She knew, she can never replace Catherine in his heart, or at least Garrett cannot admit he would love as much as he loved Catherine, he just thought Theresa crashed in the pure, exclusive love he shared with Catherine.
Theresa told him, and then left. Just living her life the same way as before, just pretending nothing had changed...
But one day, suddenly Garrette's father came to Theresa's home, with a letter Garrett left. In it, Garrett finally knew he was wrong, but just on the way he wanted to say goodbye for Catherine, and planed to ask for Theresa's forgiveness, he was never back...
Who do you think it was that brought the bottle to her?, Catherine said to Garrett in his dream...
Love should never be denied, one will never lose the ability to offer such deep love even he lost once.
July 22, 1997 My Dearest Catherine, I miss you, my darling, as I always do, but today is especially hard because the ocean has been singing to me, and the song is that of out life together. I can almost feel you beside me as I write this letter, and I can smell the scent of wildflowers that always reminds me of you. But at this moment, these things give me no pleasure. Your visits have been coming less often, and I feel sometimes as if the greatest part of who I am is slowly slipping away. I am trying, though. At night when I am alone, I call for you, and whenever my ache seems to be the greatest, you still seem to find a way to return to me. Last night, in my dreams, I saw you on the pier near Wrightsville Beach. The wind was blowing through your hair, and your eyes held the fading sunlight. I am struck as I see you leaning against the rail. You are beautiful, I think as I see you, a vision that I can never find in anyone else. I slowly begin to walk toward you, and when you finally turn to me, I notice that others have been watching you as well. ‘Do you know her?’ they ask me in jealous whispers, and as you smile at me, I simply answer with the truth, ‘Better than my own heart.’ I stop when I reach you and take you in my arms. I long for this moment more than any other. It is what I live for, and when you return my embrace, I give myself over to this moment, at peace once again. I raise my hand and gently touch your cheek and you tilt your head and close your eyes. My hands are hard and your skin is soft, and I wonder for a moment if you’ll pull back, but of course you don’t. You never have, and it is at times like this that I know what my purpose is in life. I am here to love you, to hold you in my arms, to protect you. I am hear to learn form you and to receive your love in return. I am here because there is no other place to be. But then, as always, the mist starts to from as we stand close to one another. It is a distant fog that rises from the horizon, and I find that I grow fearful as it approaches. It slowly creeps in, enveloping the world around us, fencing us in as if to prevent escape. Like a rolling cloud, it blankets everything, closing, until there is nothing left but the two of us. I feel my throat begin to close and my eyes well up with tears because I know it is time for you to go. The look you give me at that moment haunts me. I feel your sadness and my own loneliness, and the ache in my heart that had been silent for only a short time grows stronger as you release me. And then you spread your arms and step back into the fog because it is your place and not mine. I long to go with you, but your only response is to shake your head because we both know that is impossible. And I watch with breaking heart as you slowly fade away. I find myself straining to remember everything about this moment, everything about you. But soon, always too soon, your image vanishes and the fog rolls back to its faraway place and I am alone on the pier and I do not care what others think as I bow my head and cry and cry and cry。 Garrett
October 22 羊皮卷(二)我要用全身心的爱来迎接今天。
坚持不懈,直到成功。 我是自然界最伟大的奇迹。
假如今天是我生命中的最后一天。 今天我要学会控制情绪。
我要笑遍世界。 今天我要加倍重视自己的价值。
一切的一切毫无意义--除非我们付诸行动。
我现在就付诸行动。 主啊,指引我! October 19 羊皮卷(一)——只要决心成功、失败永远不会把我击垮。
今天,我开始新的生活。 今天,我爬出满是失败创伤的老茧。 今天,我重新来到这个世上,我出生在葡萄园中,园内的葡萄任人享用。 今天,我要品尝葡萄的美昧,还要吞下每一粒成功的种子,让新生命在我心里萌芽。
我选择的道路充满机遇,也有辛酸与绝望。失败的同伴数不胜数,叠在一起,比金
字塔还高。然而,我不会像他们一样失败,因为我手中持有航海图,可以领我越过 汹涌的大海,抵达梦中的彼岸。
失败不再是我奋斗的代价。它和痛苦都将从我的生命中消失。失败和我,就像水火
一样,互不相容。我不再像过去一样接受它们。我要在智慧的指引下,走出失败的 阴影,步入富足、健康、快乐的乐园,这些都超出了我以往的梦想。
我要是能长生不老,就可以学到一切,但我不能永生,所以,在有限的人生里,我
必须学会忍耐的艺术,因为大自然的行为一向是从容不迫的。造物主创造树中之王 橄榄树需要一百年的时间,而洋葱经过短短的九个星期就会枯老。我不留恋从前那
种洋葱式的生活,我要成为万树之王——橄榄树。
怎么可能?我既没有渊博的知识,又没有丰富的经验,况且,我曾一度跌入愚昧与 自怜的深渊。答案很简单:我不会让所谓的知识或者经验妨碍我的行程。造物主已 经赐予我足够的知识和本能,这份天赋是其它生物望尘莫及的。经验的价值往往被
高估了,人老的时候开口讲的多是糊涂话。
说实在的,经验确实能教给我们很多东西,只是这需要花费太长的时间。等到人们 获得智慧的时候,其价值已随着时间的消逝而减少了。结果往往是这样,经验丰富 了,人也余生无多。经验和时尚有关,适合某一时代的行为,并不意味着在今天仍
然行得通。
只有原则是持久的,而我现在正拥有了这些原则。这些可以指引我走向成功的原则
全写在这几张羊皮卷里。它教我如何避免失败,而不只是获得成功,因为成功更是 一种精神状态。人们对于成功的定义,见仁见智,而失败却往往只有一种解释:失
败就是一个人没能达到他的人生目标,不论这些目标是什么。
事实上,成功与失败的最大分别,来自不同的习惯。好习惯是开启成功的钥匙,坏
习惯则是一扇向失败敞开的门。因此,我首先要做的便是养成良好的习惯,全心全 意去实行。
小时候,我常会感情用事,长大成人了,我要用良好的习惯代替一时的冲动。我的
自由意志屈服于多年养成的恶习,它们威胁着我的前途。我的行为受到品味、情感 、偏见、欲望、爱、恐惧、环境和习惯的影响,其中最厉害的就是习惯。因此,如
果我必须受习惯支配的话,那就让我受好习惯的支配。那些坏习惯必须戒除,我要
在新的田地里播种好的种子。
今天,我开始新的生活。
我郑重地发誓,绝不让任何事情妨碍我新生命的成长。在阅读这些羊卷的时候,我 绝不浪费一天的时间,因为时光一去不返,失去的日子是无法弥补的。我也绝不打 破每天阅读的习惯。事实上,每天在这些新习惯上花费少许时间,相对于可能获得
的快乐与成功而言,只是微不足道的代价。
当我阅读羊皮卷中的字句时,绝不能因为文字的精炼而忽视内容的深沉。一瓶葡萄
美酒需要干百颗果子酿制而成,果皮和渣子抛给小鸟。葡萄的智慧代代相传,有些 被过滤,有些被淘汰,随风飘逝。只有纯正的真理才是永恒的。它们就精炼在我要
阅读的文字中。我要依照指示,绝不浪费,饮下成功的种子。
今天,我的老茧化为尘埃。我在人群中昂首阔步,不会有人认出我来,因为我不再
是过去的自己,我已拥有新的生命。 October 11 长恨歌——林花谢了春红,太匆匆,无奈朝来寒雨晚来风。 胭脂泪,留人醉,几时重,自是人生长恨水长东。 乌夜啼·李煜
在家看了丁黑导演的《长恨歌》,三十年代走出来的上海女人,是讲究的,精致的,
就如老电影的女主角,带着神秘,跌入生活。总是令人流连和艳羡的。
但,却也走不出无奈的命运。月圆月缺,循环蹈覆,只是,人这一生的时光太过短暂,
若不甚落入这缺口,便也再见不到月圆时分。王琦瑶,这个心气甚高,却总也得不到
实现的美丽传奇,终究,遗落在无人问津的平安里。
忍不住看了王安忆的书,这结局,更是让人长恨不已。
只有那不眠的路灯,在夜中摇曳。。。 October 07 一直到厌倦 ——请让我厌倦,这倦,并非是不爱了,我想,只是爱,走不下去了。
——菊开那夜
我们对于以后所要发生的,
注定懵懂,
注定盲目,
注定是这样,
被迫地席卷进阴戾的命运,
听从摆布。
终有一天会尘埃落定,
命运就像一只黑匣子,
啪的一声,
合上了结局。 October 05 The Blue Day BookEverybody has blue days.
These are miserable days when you feel lousy, grumpy, lonely, and utterly exhausted. Days when you feel small and insignificant, when everything seems just out of reach. You can't rise to the occasion. Just getting started seems impossible. On blue days you can become paranoid that everyone is out to get you. (This is not always a bad thing.) You feel frustrated and anxious, which can induce a nail-biting frenzy, then can escalate into a triple-chocolate-mud-cake-eating frenzy in a blink of an eye! On blue days you feel like you're floating in an ocean of sadness.
You're about to burst into tears at any moment and you don't even know why. Ultimately, you feel like you're wandering through life without purpose. You're not sure how much longer you can hang on, and you feel like shouting,'Will someone please shoot me!' It doesn't take much to bring on a blue day. You might just wake up not feeling or looking your best, find some new wrinkles, put on a little weight, or get a huge pimple on your nose. You could forget your dates' name or have an embarrassing photograph published. You might get dumped, divorced, or fired, make a fool of yourself in public, be afflicted with a demeaning nickname, or just have a plain old bad-hair day. Maybe work is a pain in the butt.
You're under major pressure to fill someone else's shoes, your boss is picking on you, and everyone in the office is driving you crazy. You might have a splitting headache, or a slipped disk, bad breath, a toothache, chronic gas, dry lips, or a nasty ingrown toenail. Whatever the reason, you're convinced that someone up there doesn't like you.
Oh, what to do, what to dooo?
Well, if you're like most people, you'll hide behind a flimsy belief that everying will sort itself out.
Then you'll spend the rest of your life looking over your shoulder, waiting for everything to go wrong all over again. All the while becoming crusty and cynical, or a pathetic, sniveling victim. Until you get so depressed that you lie down and beg the earth to swallow you up,
or, even worse, become addicted to Billy Joel songs. This is crazy, because you're only young once, and you're never old twice. Who knows what fantasitc things are in store just around the corner?
After all, the world is full of amazing discoveries, things you can't even imagine now. There are delicious, happy sniffs, and scrumptious snacks to share. Hey, you might end up fabulously rich, or even become a huge superstar one day.
Sounds good, doesn't it?
But wait, there's more! There are handstands, and games to play, and yoga, and karaoke, and wild, crazy, bohemian dancing. But best of all, there's romance.
Which means long dreamy stares, whispering sweet nothings, cuddles, smooches, more smooches, and even more smooches, a frisky love bite or two, and then, well, anything goes. So how can you find tha blissful 'just sliding into a hot bubble bath' kind of feeling?
It's easy. First, stop slinking away from all those nagging issues. It's time to face the music. Now, just relax. Take some deep breaths (in through the nose and out through the mouth).
Try to meditate if you can. Or go for a walk to clear your head. Accept the fact that you'll have to let go of some emotional baggage. Try seeing things from a different perspective. Maybe you're actually the one at fault. If that's the case, be big enough to say you're sorry. (It's never to late to do this).
If someone else is doing the wrong thing, stand up tall and say, 'That's not right and I won't stand for it!'
It's okay to be forceful. It's rarely okay to blow raspberries. Be proud of who you are,
but don't lose the ability to laugh at yourself. This is a lot easier when you associate with positive people. Live every day as if it were your last, because on day it will be. Don't be afraid to bite off more than you can chew. Take big risks. Never hang back. Get out there and go for it. After all, isn't that what life is all about?
I think so too.... *^O^*
July 15 致橡树我如果爱你 —— 绝不象攀援的凌霄花 借你的高枝炫耀自己 我如果爱你 —— 绝不学痴情的鸟儿 为绿茵重复单纯的歌曲 也不止象源泉 常年送来清凉的慰藉 也不止象险峰 增加你的高度,衬托你的威仪 甚至月光 甚至春雨 不,这些还都不够 我必须是你近旁的一株木棉 作为树的形象和你站在一起 根,紧握在地下 叶,相触在云里 每一阵风过 我们都互相致意 但没有人 听懂我们的语言 你有你的铜枝铁杆 象刀,象剑 也象戟 我有我红硕的花朵 象沉重的叹息 又象英勇的火炬 我们分担寒潮,风雷,霹雳 我们分享雾霭,流岚,虹霓 仿佛永远分离 却又终生相依 这才是伟大的爱情 坚贞就在这里 爱 —— 不仅爱你伟岸的身躯 也爱你的位置,足下的土地 以后去婺源的时候, 一定要看这棵橡树和她身边的木棉, 令人感叹的雄伟与坚贞。
这正是我想要的爱情。 所以下辈子, 我要做一棵树, 可以哪里也不用去, 站在原地, 等待爱情。
但至少这辈子, 我死的时候, 会将我的一切, 洒在这树下, 渗入尘土。 June 25 Mid-Autumn Festival-to the tune of Shuitiaoket'ouHow rare the moon, so round and clear!
With cup in hand, I ask of the blue sky,
'I do not know in the celestial sphere
What name this festive night goes by?'
I want to fly home, riding the air,
But fear the ethereal cold up there,
The jade and crystal mansions are so high!
Dancing to my shadow,
I feel no longer the mortal tie.
She rounds the vermilion tower,
Stoops to silk-pad doors,
Shines on those who sleepless lie.
Why does she, bearing us no grudge,
Shine upon our parting, reunion deny?
But rare is perfect happiness----
The moon does wax, the moon does wane,
And so men meet and say goodbye.
I only pray our life be long,
And our souls together heavenward fly!
——苏轼的《水调歌头》,即便是林语堂翻译的,
读来也实在奇怪,有些东西无法用语言转换。
比如意境,比如内涵,比如信仰,比如气节,
《英雄》里的一个剑字,便就不能只翻成Sword,
怪不得老外会一头雾水为甚么剑客最后没有杀秦王。
June 13 晴雯红楼乃是一“情文”也!
雨后初晴曰霁,霞之浓者为虹,淡者为雯。
霁月难逢,彩云易散,
心比天高,身为下贱。
风流灵巧招人怨,
寿夭多因诽谤生,
多情公子空牵连,
——命比纸薄。
少不读红楼,老不看三国。
枕一本红楼,过一个夏天。 June 09 ComplexIt is the time to start the discussion on this 'Complex' book.
It refers an "increasing returns" theory which compares to the previous 'decreasing returns' in economy, and I absolutely support the new point.
What surprised me is this theory is raised by a mathematician who got an inspirition from Biology theory.
It refers why we use 'QWERT' keyboard pattern is not 'cause the fastest typing speed in that way , by contrary it slows down your typing speed; A clockwise clock once rotated in the opposite way, but rotating deasil plays the leading role occasionally and up to now.
In a word, the point is little change makes huge evolution.
Even the history is piled up with thousands of little unexpeted changes...
Sounds like 'Chaos Theory', but in a more extensive view. (to be continued...) May 16 Essay on ManPlaced on this isthmus of a middle state
A Being darkly wise, and rudely great:
With too much knowledge for the Sceptic side,
With too much weakness for the Stoic's pride,
He hangs between;
In doubt to act, or rest,
In doubt to deem himself a God, or Beast,
In doubt his mind or body to prefer;
Born but to die, and reasoning but to err.
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