最近心情很反复，觉得这样的状态很糟糕。

被Lab meeting上老博士的话一语道破：

人永远是生活在漩涡中的，

不要妄想你哪天能心静下来再做事情，

要做的事情永远要现在去做。

Just do it, right now.

总是有原因的，但没有借口。

是的，我该甩一甩头，然后马上开始，

我想让自己变得更坚强。

 

车展是注定去的经历，

喜欢质感强烈的车型，往往透出钢仞的肌肉之感，

但那种车精致的只能让人远观，

喜欢Cadillac Escalade的理由很简单，

坐在里面关上车门，仿佛天塌下来也和你没有关系，

很安静，静的只剩呼吸，很安全。

 唯一一张和车子的合影啊，，，

就没搞懂干嘛一定要车模，，，

车子本身就是有生命力的。

 

 

 

All began from this letter in a Bottle.

She got the bottle on the beach, with her curiosity, she was moved by it so much coz it just waked up something deepen in her bottom of heart. Her name was Theresa, after being betrayed by her husband who was the only one she loved and married to. Without thinking of happenly coming across two other letters from Garrett, who obviously falling in deep love with Catherine. She just wanted to find out how can one love so deeply, she just wanted to find out but never knew she was steping into a doomed bottle of Destiny...

No one can predict what would happen next sec, no one would figure out the scene their eyesight contacted with each other, Garrett would never think he would fall in love with this woman pushed by a bottle, and now standing before him...

A little sad about what happened afterward. On hearing Theresa knowing his letters in the bottle, Garrett shouted to her, felt as he was used by her, she was totally a liar. But even Garrett himself didn't relize, Theresa knew it was not the true reason made him so angry. She knew, she can never replace Catherine in his heart, or at least Garrett cannot admit he would love as much as he loved Catherine, he just thought Theresa crashed in the pure, exclusive love he shared with Catherine.

Theresa told him, and then left. Just living her life the same way as before, just pretending nothing had changed... 

But one day, suddenly Garrette's father came to Theresa's home, with a letter Garrett left. In it, Garrett finally knew he was wrong, but just on the way he wanted to say goodbye for Catherine, and planed to ask for Theresa's forgiveness, he was never back...

Who do you think it was that brought the bottle to her?, Catherine said to Garrett in his dream...

Love should never be denied, one will never lose the ability to offer such deep love even he lost once.

 

July 22, 1997

My Dearest Catherine,

I miss you, my darling, as I always do, but today is especially hard because the ocean has been singing to me, and the song is that of out life together. I can almost feel you beside me as I write this letter, and I can smell the scent of wildflowers that always reminds me of you. But at this moment, these things give me no pleasure. Your visits have been coming less often, and I feel sometimes as if the greatest part of who I am is slowly slipping away.

I am trying, though. At night when I am alone, I call for you, and whenever my ache seems to be the greatest, you still seem to find a way to return to me. Last night, in my dreams, I saw you on the pier near Wrightsville Beach. The wind was blowing through your hair, and your eyes held the fading sunlight. I am struck as I see you leaning against the rail. You are beautiful, I think as I see you, a vision that I can never find in anyone else. I slowly begin to walk toward you, and when you finally turn to me, I notice that others have been watching you as well. ‘Do you know her?’ they ask me in jealous whispers, and as you smile at me, I simply answer with the truth, ‘Better than my own heart.’

I stop when I reach you and take you in my arms. I long for this moment more than any other. It is what I live for, and when you return my embrace, I give myself over to this moment, at peace once again.

I raise my hand and gently touch your cheek and you tilt your head and close your eyes. My hands are hard and your skin is soft, and I wonder for a moment if you’ll pull back, but of course you don’t. You never have, and it is at times like this that I know what my purpose is in life.

I am here to love you, to hold you in my arms, to protect you. I am hear to learn form you and to receive your love in return. I am here because there is no other place to be.

But then, as always, the mist starts to from as we stand close to one another. It is a distant fog that rises from the horizon, and I find that I grow fearful as it approaches. It slowly creeps in, enveloping the world around us, fencing us in as if to prevent escape. Like a rolling cloud, it blankets everything, closing, until there is nothing left but the two of us.

I feel my throat begin to close and my eyes well up with tears because I know it is time for you to go. The look you give me at that moment haunts me. I feel your sadness and my own loneliness, and the ache in my heart that had been silent for only a short time grows stronger as you release me. And then you spread your arms and step back into the fog because it is your place and not mine. I long to go with you, but your only response is to shake your head because we both know that is impossible.

And I watch with breaking heart as you slowly fade away. I find myself straining to remember everything about this moment, everything about you. But soon, always too soon, your image vanishes and the fog rolls back to its faraway place and I am alone on the pier and I do not care what others think as I bow my head and cry and cry and cry。

Garrett

 

 

 

 

 

 

       

 

 

            要努力生活，要自尊自爱。

 

 

            “ 人的内在精神是悲剧的来源！”

             所以痛苦才被深刻记忆。

             突然想到这句话，一定一定要保持平和的心态◎◎

 

变数太快，来不及眨眼。

原定下周五的张学友演唱会，

现在班级组织南京实习～～

 

Anyway，四月，是出游的日子。

明早六点半，奔向黄山。

 

 

              嗯，有摄像头的好处，在于充分发挥了人本性中的自恋情结，

              整理相册，发觉自己也有好多自拍大头照，翻看之后，

              不禁感叹，，，

              成长的一切都写在了脸上，

              从稚嫩到成熟ing还没到苍老^-^。。。

              一路蜕变。。。

             

                                                                          ——我的进化论

 

              （PS：发觉自己space越写越没有文采了@-@，都是实验惹得！）

 

               呵呵，昨天从Coco那里看到一副黑边眼镜，抢来一试，正合我意^-^.

               我戴眼镜的样子还是很学术，很艺术，有气质的嘛。。。（躲到角落狂吐）。

               哈哈，都是人家的评论嘛，我哪看得到，于是对着镜子一阵狂照。。。（继续狂吐，哈哈）

 

               其实，关于眼镜，说来还是有段历史渊源的，

               我从小对戴眼镜的同志们颇为崇拜，

               感觉特气质，，，（气质＝眼镜？）

               于是，总是向往自己有一副，

               于是，卯足劲想买一副，，，平光眼镜。

               被老爸潇洒的扔进垃圾桶。。。

               没办法，咱家裸眼视力一直保持5.2。

               记得刚进初中，班级里四十个小朋友四个戴眼镜，

               学画画特别伤眼睛，整天对着卤素灯，

               初中毕业的时候就四个不戴眼镜，我是其中之一。

               高中整天啃书也没把眼睛啃近视，，，

               现在也就只能戴戴平光镜过过瘾。

               呵呵，想来是遗传吧，老爸老妈视力都好，

               不过现在都戴老光眼镜了。看来我还是有机会的。（汗！）

              

               除了我的眼镜情缘，我对酒窝也情有独衷，还有单眼皮，还有厚嘴唇，

               哈哈，癖好大公开啊～～～

               所以，超级喜欢单眼皮厚嘴唇有酒窝又戴眼镜的男人！！！（^-^花痴状）

               所以，喜欢的男演员多少都有这些特质：

               《巴黎恋人》里的男一号：单眼皮+酒窝+戴眼镜！！

                玄彬：单眼皮＋酒窝！

                Rain， 金来沅：单眼皮＋厚嘴唇＋阳光笑脸

                。。。。。。有很多排列组合的，，，娃哈哈。。

                       

Noreen, you're likely to find fame and fortune in the Creative World

Talk about ideas! You're the type of person who's always coming up with a new way to look at things — wherever you are. And more than most, you're probably able to better express them in a multitude of ways — through writing, acting, sketching, jamming, painting, dancing, sculpting, filming, arranging...you get the picture.

Because you've got so much going on upstairs, your brain is never really turned in the "off" position. Heck, your dreams are probably even more creative than others. Here's the thing: You're the type who rises to the challenge of making something out of nothing — it's a skill not everyone has. So how about it? What's your next creative contribution to the world?

Maybe you'll pen the first rap opera. Maybe you'll join a rock-climbing, performance dance troop. Or maybe you'll discover a link between Balinese Batik painters and Picasso. However you find fame and fortune, we sense you'll be getting there by tapping into that uniquely-psychedelic-inventive-original-interpretive-expressive mass of creative gray matter.

So get out there and start designing your own clothing line, or theme restaurant, or housing complex, or website, or...

An interesting test website: www.tickle.com

 

 

              MCS序列做了两次都放不进去，，，

              练琴房到现在都没有开始，，，

              跳舞课也因事缺席，，，

              法语学了公法上就等着忘记，，，

              自己做事实在欠缺意志，，，

 

              接下来要做的事都要HOLD ON!

              给自己贴个标语以示鼓励！！

 

         不出意外地拿到驾照，二个月多， 累计开车里程已经到达300多公里（粗略计算），

         也学到一件事，开车一定要安全第一，因为有好多人的驾照是有水分的，

         大路考那天已经亲身体验，什么四十码还挂二档，什么路口变道压到直线，，，竟然都过了。

         高口估计这次又没空考了，接下来要奋力做实验，接下来是一大堆毕业相关的事情，，，

 

         其实过程不见得那么享受，但我要的是结果。所以，我喜欢写总结，却不乐于写其中的感受。

         往往过程意味着各种纠结，过分沉迷于中，到头来，走了一大圈却什么也没有留下。

         但结果是一种定格，也可以被保存，于是，今天与昨天的分隔，各自也只放的下一个结果。

        

         这样的日子，让人困乏，思维也紧跟着减缓，出去走走，挺好，，

         我看到楼下的小女孩绕着花园里的鹅卵石走呀走，一圈一圈，跌跌撞撞，却乐此不彼，

         于是明白，人生无法定格。。。

         我只能一直往前走，往前走，用我的昨天，记录下所有被定格的往事。。。