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October 29 这年头 刚才被外面的嘈杂声吸引，结果跑去阳台往下一看，那边有人在表白——
一个男生在女生楼下用蜡烛摆了一个心，几里挂啦说了一通，然后女生就
下楼和他拥抱kiss了。。。
诶，这年头的小孩。。。。
搞得我狂感叹！！！ Reason That everyone comes into my life for a reason,
What's yours?
和果见面相拥，明明是那么清纯的发型结果也被她的顽固头发发展成为80年代的女性了，
加上Gucci超级夸张的那副大眼镜～～和我走在一起简直不是一个Style，我那么学院气。
和某人吃饭，终于，小宝和小果忍不住惊叹这某人怎么从善成这等学术派风格，然后突感
我们两个身上不走的反叛气质与之对比之下显然不是一个世界的，怎么会这样！和翻出来
的记忆平行比对，简直莫名其妙了有些。
然后，终于知道所谓‘年少轻狂’就是用来推翻自己以往的一切。于是有种相拥以泪洗面
的冲动，原来，我们偶然遇见某些人，是为了和另一些人相遇的，小果狂nod。那么我们
两个，就是平衡体啦，一半狂野，一半天真。半边浸泡在不同大世界。清醒着，感知着这
两边的距离。
各自都在忙着，沉寂在某种压抑的情绪之下，或者，忙到没有太多时间思考，这是一种充
实的生活状态，嗯，很不错。小果考上研究生，还有在外面做的很多PR的杂事，我是觉得
她就是适合这种与人为伍的工作嘛，小果说，现实的生活就是这样，很多时候由不得你选，
那么你会怎么选择，我？I live on the present，无论在做什么，喜不喜欢，其实最终，
只要做好就会有被认同之感，而那时便已不在乎在做什么了，嗯。原来我们两个其实都是
喜欢备受瞩目之感的，虚荣心啊。。。
其实，sex and city当中，那个被很多人不齿的semansa对待生活，对待朋友的那种态度
真诚，充满激情，才是我两最欣赏的。。。
Anyway，工作，还要继续找，，，好歹在北京偶还有闯荡的小果。
要为我们的青年旅舍添砖加瓦◎◎ October 26 上海没有秋天 昨天还大汗淋漓，今天却已然瑟瑟发抖，下午坐在教室，窗外的天像是要哭了，
把在学校最厚的衣服翻出来，晚上去上课，还是冷的不行，
肩膀以下手臂完全没有温度，怀疑是不是循环出问题了。
似乎夏天已过，尽是冬意。
这样的天气，容易让人感伤。
我是顶顶不喜欢冬天的了，而秋已消失～～
回到宿舍，惊闻北区又有跳楼一说！！
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发觉最近写的东西都不是我的调了，，，嗯，太没我的style了！！！
踉踉跄跄的。。。sign
October 25 HallelujahI heard there was a secret chord
that david played and it pleased the lord but you don't really care for music, do you? Well it goes like this the fourth, the fifth the minor fall and the major lift the baffled king composing Hallelujah Hallalujah...Hallelujah Well your faith was strong but you needed proof
you saw her bathing on the roof her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you she tied you to her kitchen chair she broke your throne and she cut your hair and from your lips she drew the Hallelujah Hallelujah...Hallelujah
Baby I've been here before
I've seen this room and I've walked this floor I used to live alone before I knew you I've seen your flag on the marble arch but love is not a victory march It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah Hallelujah...Hallelujah Well there was a time when you let me know
what's really going on below but now you never show that to me,do you? but remeber when I moved in you and the holy dove was moving too and every breath we drew was Hallelujah Hallelujah...Hallelujah Well maybe there's a God above
but all I've ever learned from love was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you it's not a cry that you hear at night it's not somebody who's seen the light it's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah Hallelujah...Hallelujah...Hallelujah Hallelujah: Praise the Lord October 24 忍不住写写宣讲会 嗯，刚从MARS的宣讲会回来，一个礼品袋里除了宣传册外加M&M,彩虹糖红包和绿包，
还有士力架，Dove的新口味香浓椰子，都是可爱小包装，，，宣讲还没有开始放映他们
全球广告宣传片，原来伟嘉，宝路也都是他家产品，还好没有放在礼品袋里。不过氛围
已经到了，外加中间轻松环节，问了些他家公司的问题，答者有礼品，一层巧克力，想象
一下...口水ing。。。
话说回来，也就是大四了才开始关注这些企业，原先对他们都没有概念，而实际上生活中
处处都是，所以，品牌的背后才是企业，品牌的价值和定位树立企业的形象。
上次听Monitor也是，这样，门口有怡口莲，可乐，整个塑造一个Family的氛围，确实感觉
很好。而这也就是所谓的企业文化的体现吧，往往这种抽象的摸不到的概念带来的价值是
超于想象的。Mckinsey今天的宣讲会有点令人失望，不是很professional的感觉，倒不如
上次给我们Science背景开的Workshop来得融洽，虽然人家都知道他家的leader地位，
但宣讲会是面子问题，不能不顾的。。。
感觉最好的还是Bain那个经理，非常儒雅的气质，让人感觉很舒服，，，
发觉听宣讲会越来越多以后，自己的世俗气质也见长啊。
Anyway，life can be enjoyable.
en,小果27号来复旦。^^
找工作综合症 精神涣散，每天看招聘网站，去宣讲会。
脱发：营养不良？还是电脑辐射？肾亏？
食欲不振：进食堂就倒胃口，当然，这是一直的。
每天憋CV，写类似Career Goal之类的bt OQ，
自己有什么strengths，weakness，吹啊吹，，，
干了什么体现你的leadship， intercommunication， team player。。。
我干了什么我早忘了。。。真的不记得了。
Endless paining
关键是，还是不知道自己干什么。
一张网通卡，endless 打印成本，Image70元简历照，
虽然偶不推崇化了妆拍，觉得我还是真人PP，
邮票，信封忽略不计 。。。妈妈给我买了1000正装，鞋子还没，，，
成本累计已超过四位数。。。何时回收有待考证。。。
工作是一定会有的，只是，人人都想要个high springboard,,,
关键是，在你没签卖身契前，自己都不知道被卖到啥地方，签了就没的选了。
关键是，你要有好的RP，以便能碰运气。。。然后逢人便称自己有眼光。
关键是，要有屡败屡战的自嘲精神。。。以被拒不是你不好，是你不match with为由继续网申。。。
关键的关键，，，呵呵，，，不说也罢。
小果啊，还是你自由自在。。。
October 22 羊皮卷（二）我要用全身心的爱来迎接今天。
坚持不懈，直到成功。 我是自然界最伟大的奇迹。
假如今天是我生命中的最后一天。 今天我要学会控制情绪。
我要笑遍世界。 今天我要加倍重视自己的价值。
一切的一切毫无意义--除非我们付诸行动。
我现在就付诸行动。 主啊，指引我！ October 20 我的公主衫，我的练功服^^ 其实本质是酷的，热情的，张扬的我今天穿了个蕾丝衬衣出现在众人面前。
高贵的气质是我的所望，被裹在不同衣服里的我，似乎是不同的样子。
练舞的黑色紧身衣，能让我每个细胞都为之雀跃，似乎每一个都是那么真实的我。
可可看自己的DV是不自在的，因为好像那个是不认识的自己，
而发现，原来我们每一个人以为自己在别人眼中的样子，都不是别人眼中的自己。
每个人，都有那么多样子，不是嘛。。。
然后，盟主心血来潮给我和可可做了卷发。。。不错的改变^^
我拿着相机给可可拍照，可可也是，两个小花痴的摄影水平都不错。
贴图为正。
LIKE A MAGIC。。。
There's no way to know everything of another one,
that's why we keep interest in knowing... October 19 羊皮卷（一）——只要决心成功、失败永远不会把我击垮。
今天，我开始新的生活。 今天，我爬出满是失败创伤的老茧。 今天，我重新来到这个世上，我出生在葡萄园中，园内的葡萄任人享用。 今天，我要品尝葡萄的美昧，还要吞下每一粒成功的种子，让新生命在我心里萌芽。
我选择的道路充满机遇，也有辛酸与绝望。失败的同伴数不胜数，叠在一起，比金
字塔还高。然而，我不会像他们一样失败，因为我手中持有航海图，可以领我越过 汹涌的大海，抵达梦中的彼岸。
失败不再是我奋斗的代价。它和痛苦都将从我的生命中消失。失败和我，就像水火
一样，互不相容。我不再像过去一样接受它们。我要在智慧的指引下，走出失败的 阴影，步入富足、健康、快乐的乐园，这些都超出了我以往的梦想。
我要是能长生不老，就可以学到一切，但我不能永生，所以，在有限的人生里，我
必须学会忍耐的艺术，因为大自然的行为一向是从容不迫的。造物主创造树中之王 橄榄树需要一百年的时间，而洋葱经过短短的九个星期就会枯老。我不留恋从前那
种洋葱式的生活，我要成为万树之王——橄榄树。
怎么可能？我既没有渊博的知识，又没有丰富的经验，况且，我曾一度跌入愚昧与 自怜的深渊。答案很简单：我不会让所谓的知识或者经验妨碍我的行程。造物主已 经赐予我足够的知识和本能，这份天赋是其它生物望尘莫及的。经验的价值往往被
高估了，人老的时候开口讲的多是糊涂话。
说实在的，经验确实能教给我们很多东西，只是这需要花费太长的时间。等到人们 获得智慧的时候，其价值已随着时间的消逝而减少了。结果往往是这样，经验丰富 了，人也余生无多。经验和时尚有关，适合某一时代的行为，并不意味着在今天仍
然行得通。
只有原则是持久的，而我现在正拥有了这些原则。这些可以指引我走向成功的原则
全写在这几张羊皮卷里。它教我如何避免失败，而不只是获得成功，因为成功更是 一种精神状态。人们对于成功的定义，见仁见智，而失败却往往只有一种解释：失
败就是一个人没能达到他的人生目标，不论这些目标是什么。
事实上，成功与失败的最大分别，来自不同的习惯。好习惯是开启成功的钥匙，坏
习惯则是一扇向失败敞开的门。因此，我首先要做的便是养成良好的习惯，全心全 意去实行。
小时候，我常会感情用事，长大成人了，我要用良好的习惯代替一时的冲动。我的
自由意志屈服于多年养成的恶习，它们威胁着我的前途。我的行为受到品味、情感 、偏见、欲望、爱、恐惧、环境和习惯的影响，其中最厉害的就是习惯。因此，如
果我必须受习惯支配的话，那就让我受好习惯的支配。那些坏习惯必须戒除，我要
在新的田地里播种好的种子。
今天，我开始新的生活。
我郑重地发誓，绝不让任何事情妨碍我新生命的成长。在阅读这些羊卷的时候，我 绝不浪费一天的时间，因为时光一去不返，失去的日子是无法弥补的。我也绝不打 破每天阅读的习惯。事实上，每天在这些新习惯上花费少许时间，相对于可能获得
的快乐与成功而言，只是微不足道的代价。
当我阅读羊皮卷中的字句时，绝不能因为文字的精炼而忽视内容的深沉。一瓶葡萄
美酒需要干百颗果子酿制而成，果皮和渣子抛给小鸟。葡萄的智慧代代相传，有些 被过滤，有些被淘汰，随风飘逝。只有纯正的真理才是永恒的。它们就精炼在我要
阅读的文字中。我要依照指示，绝不浪费，饮下成功的种子。
今天，我的老茧化为尘埃。我在人群中昂首阔步，不会有人认出我来，因为我不再
是过去的自己，我已拥有新的生命。 October 18 Logical thinking (1)When hypnotized subjects are told that they are deaf and are then asked whether they can hear the hypnotise,
they reply, 'No.' Some theorists try to explain this result by arguing that the selves of hypnotized subjects are
dissociated into separate parts, and that the part that is deaf is dissociated from the part that replies.
Which of the following challenges indicates the most serious weakness in the attempted explanation described
above?
A) Why does the part that replies not answer, 'Yes'?
B) Why are the observed facts in need of any special explanation?
C) Why do the subjects appear to accept the hypnotist's suggestion that they are deaf?
D) Why do hypnotized subjects all respond the same way in the situation described?
E) Why are the seperate parts of the self the same for all subjects?
Tell me if you know the answer^^! October 11 长恨歌——林花谢了春红，太匆匆，无奈朝来寒雨晚来风。 胭脂泪，留人醉，几时重,自是人生长恨水长东。 乌夜啼·李煜
在家看了丁黑导演的《长恨歌》，三十年代走出来的上海女人，是讲究的，精致的，
就如老电影的女主角，带着神秘，跌入生活。总是令人流连和艳羡的。
但，却也走不出无奈的命运。月圆月缺，循环蹈覆，只是，人这一生的时光太过短暂，
若不甚落入这缺口，便也再见不到月圆时分。王琦瑶，这个心气甚高，却总也得不到
实现的美丽传奇，终究，遗落在无人问津的平安里。
忍不住看了王安忆的书，这结局，更是让人长恨不已。
只有那不眠的路灯，在夜中摇曳。。。 白月光白月光
心里某个地方
那么亮却那么冰凉 每个人都有一段悲伤 想隐藏却欲盖弥彰 --- 白月光 照天涯的两端
在心上却不在身旁 擦不干你当时的泪光 路太长 追不回原谅
你是我不能言说的伤 想遗忘又忍不住回想 像流亡一路跌跌撞撞 你的捆绑无法释放 --- 白月光 照天涯的两端
越圆满越觉得孤单 擦不干回忆里的泪光 路太长 怎么补偿
---- 想隐藏却在生长 。。。。。。 October 07 一直到厌倦 ——请让我厌倦，这倦，并非是不爱了，我想，只是爱，走不下去了。
——菊开那夜
我们对于以后所要发生的，
注定懵懂，
注定盲目，
注定是这样，
被迫地席卷进阴戾的命运，
听从摆布。
终有一天会尘埃落定，
命运就像一只黑匣子，
啪的一声，
合上了结局。 October 05 The Blue Day BookEverybody has blue days.
These are miserable days when you feel lousy, grumpy, lonely, and utterly exhausted. Days when you feel small and insignificant, when everything seems just out of reach. You can't rise to the occasion. Just getting started seems impossible. On blue days you can become paranoid that everyone is out to get you. (This is not always a bad thing.) You feel frustrated and anxious, which can induce a nail-biting frenzy, then can escalate into a triple-chocolate-mud-cake-eating frenzy in a blink of an eye! On blue days you feel like you're floating in an ocean of sadness.
You're about to burst into tears at any moment and you don't even know why. Ultimately, you feel like you're wandering through life without purpose. You're not sure how much longer you can hang on, and you feel like shouting,'Will someone please shoot me!' It doesn't take much to bring on a blue day. You might just wake up not feeling or looking your best, find some new wrinkles, put on a little weight, or get a huge pimple on your nose. You could forget your dates' name or have an embarrassing photograph published. You might get dumped, divorced, or fired, make a fool of yourself in public, be afflicted with a demeaning nickname, or just have a plain old bad-hair day. Maybe work is a pain in the butt.
You're under major pressure to fill someone else's shoes, your boss is picking on you, and everyone in the office is driving you crazy. You might have a splitting headache, or a slipped disk, bad breath, a toothache, chronic gas, dry lips, or a nasty ingrown toenail. Whatever the reason, you're convinced that someone up there doesn't like you.
Oh, what to do, what to dooo?
Well, if you're like most people, you'll hide behind a flimsy belief that everying will sort itself out.
Then you'll spend the rest of your life looking over your shoulder, waiting for everything to go wrong all over again. All the while becoming crusty and cynical, or a pathetic, sniveling victim. Until you get so depressed that you lie down and beg the earth to swallow you up,
or, even worse, become addicted to Billy Joel songs. This is crazy, because you're only young once, and you're never old twice. Who knows what fantasitc things are in store just around the corner?
After all, the world is full of amazing discoveries, things you can't even imagine now. There are delicious, happy sniffs, and scrumptious snacks to share. Hey, you might end up fabulously rich, or even become a huge superstar one day.
Sounds good, doesn't it?
But wait, there's more! There are handstands, and games to play, and yoga, and karaoke, and wild, crazy, bohemian dancing. But best of all, there's romance.
Which means long dreamy stares, whispering sweet nothings, cuddles, smooches, more smooches, and even more smooches, a frisky love bite or two, and then, well, anything goes. So how can you find tha blissful 'just sliding into a hot bubble bath' kind of feeling?
It's easy. First, stop slinking away from all those nagging issues. It's time to face the music. Now, just relax. Take some deep breaths (in through the nose and out through the mouth).
Try to meditate if you can. Or go for a walk to clear your head. Accept the fact that you'll have to let go of some emotional baggage. Try seeing things from a different perspective. Maybe you're actually the one at fault. If that's the case, be big enough to say you're sorry. (It's never to late to do this).
If someone else is doing the wrong thing, stand up tall and say, 'That's not right and I won't stand for it!'
It's okay to be forceful. It's rarely okay to blow raspberries. Be proud of who you are,
but don't lose the ability to laugh at yourself. This is a lot easier when you associate with positive people. Live every day as if it were your last, because on day it will be. Don't be afraid to bite off more than you can chew. Take big risks. Never hang back. Get out there and go for it. After all, isn't that what life is all about?
I think so too.... *^O^*
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